Well, once again I’ve not written anything in a while. Ironically, it’s not reflection of what this blog means to me, but a reflection of my inability to articulate what I’m going through.
It’s Thanksgiving, so I felt it was fitting to turn the corner of self-pity and focus on why I should be grateful, because if I’m honest, there’s no good reason for me not to feel an immense amount of gratitude and joy.
To begin, I’ll elaborate on where I’ve been lately.
As I’ve wrote about in a previous post, I’ve been dealing with chronic shoulder and foot pain. The severity of the pain has diminished quite a bit, but I backslid with my diet which created a downward spiral of emotions. I succumbed to my sugar addiction once again and ate out a lot, ingesting foods that were grain-based and possibly contained gluten. I’ve documented about my gluten intolerance, and how consuming grains sparingly at best has done wonders for my inflammation issues as well as digestive struggles. I’ve been stricken with almost daily headaches and depression.
Sometimes it seems as though I’ve got things all figured out. I’m conquering my demons and defeating my ailments one positive choice at a time. That is when I feel most inspired to document my story and share with you all that I’ve learned. But what I’ve recently experienced doesn’t make me dishonest, pathetic or a fraud- it makes me human. That realization is what compelled me to divulge my recent setback with you.
Part of addiction (often times) is relapse. It’s human nature to make gains and regress at some point. I’ve said this before; failure isn’t faltering, it’s giving up.
I will never give up on my quest to better myself in regards to my emotional, physical and mental well-being. I will overcome this setback and be better than ever. When a mishap inevitably does occur, I will be honest with you and myself so I can rise above it and move on.
Things I’m grateful for:
- My health
- My Husband
- My furbabies (cats)
- My friends/family
- Meditation
- Self-help books
- My home
- The sun- great weather
- My job
- The choice to be happy
Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!!