Well, this year has been a wild ride, full of unpredictability and unforeseen circumstances. It has tested me in almost every possible way, but I’m fortunate enough to know in my heart that even the worst situations are happening for a reason. Because at minimum, I realize that I’m going to learn something about life, other people, and most importantly, myself. I certainly have.
For those of you who followed the Goodbye Yellow Brick Road series, my dad’s house was sold in September to a military veteran. He had expressed great interest in it immediately after the viewing, even going so far as to make improvements on the residence himself to ensure that it passed the very stringent VA inspections. I was relieved and truly happy that the home I practically grew up in was now going to be home to someone so deserving- someone who visualized the potential in it and was willing to do whatever it took to make it his own.
In April of this year, I was contemplating surgery and not sure if I’d ever work out again. I was angry, scared and overwhelmed upon hearing the final diagnosis; the MRI showed a bulging disc and arthritis in my lower back and neck and degeneration in my L-5 S-1. On the plus side, I was told surgery wouldn’t be necessary- however, aside from a lifetime of steroid injections (which increase inflammation, btw), there wasn’t much that could be done. This was unacceptable to me. I started reading a book called End Back Pain Forever by Dr. Norman J. Marcus, which taught me that most back pain (75%) is caused by muscle issues- not spinal abnormalities. I can’t change the fact that I have scoliosis, but I can strengthen weak muscles and heal injured ones. This knowledge was a game-changer for me! I am back at the gym now, and follow a strict stretching regimen from my physical therapist, but my pain is almost completely gone and my quality of life has mostly been restored!
On a more personal note, I’ve seen a lot of relationships come to an end this year. Some were people who’d been in my life for a decade or more. Most were like family, and this doesn’t include the loss of my father who passed in March. I know times are heavy for everyone, so please know that I don’t mention this for sympathy, merely transparency. I’m grateful for everyone who has touched my life- regardless of how things ended or what the circumstances were. The fact is, nothing is guaranteed; certainly not our relationships. They run their course and they change with the seasons. Still, it’s been painful and hard to accept at times. But I found myself asking “Isn’t it better to let go and accept that the possibility that what was once meant for you isn’t aligned with you any longer?” And as difficult as that can be, once you do, you make room for all the people, experiences and possibilities that are meant for you!
Now, how’s that for making a fucking lemon meringue pie out of lemons?!
Well, that’s my update. I wish you all health, abundance and happiness. And if you’re in pain- emotionally or physically, hang in there; may you find the answers you need and the help you deserve:)